Feeling much better

Now I'm feel much better when back to my home town. Unfortunately I' cant study at my home. I need go to Wi-Fi place to use internet for searching jobs. I really need a job in Kulim or Penang. Otherwise, I need to stay at KL for another few months... This is not my decision to stay in KL for a long time. Now I feel much better when I'm back to my home town... The differences between my life in KL and Kulim are the big different. When we meet together we always scold each other but in KL I miss her very much... haiz... If I go back also quarrel in KL also sad...So sad to be a human being... However my exam is coming soon. But still not yet study. Don't know how I'm go for my exam...=.= I'm so worried about it also... Now KL have a lots of job vacancy. I scared that I might to work in KL if I'm don't have job here... So sad........=.=

Started bored

I really feel bored to stay in KL. Wrong timing for me to come here... Since i come to KL all the bus fare was increase. Now in training center also the same...The pc that I use in training center are problematic to me. Always hang la, system cannot support la and other matter. Always happen to me. I really bored about it. I know CCNP are the most difficult but once your pc hang u need to redo again. If one day hang 3 times, you need to redo and redo until success. When you miss one step to finish the task, then my pc hang again. If that person is you, how do you feel??? However I need to stay alone every night. No friends are around me, who should I talk to?? Wall or Room??
Talk also they won't reply you, cause they are non living things ma... =.= The first day I come to training center that time I pretend my mum is around me. And I also tell myself that I'm in Penang not KL. That's why I can live here until now. But my feeling inside my heart are sad all the time. I can't meet my mum everyday, what we do just SMS only... Or hear our voice in phone. When I miss my mum I just can see in my phone because I capture her photo inside my phone. I really bored. I hope I can go back home as soon as possible. I can't stand KL life...Especially the food expenses. One day I took economy rice it cost me RM5 per meal. I need to spend RM 15 per day to take my breakfast, lunch and dinner. All of the food also feel very bored. Everyday also same food. Until today I start feel to vomit... What can I do with other than that??? Cook by my self?? I can't!!! Cause I feel wasting my time to cook at home. However I also don't have that much time to cook beside wash cloths... I need to wash cloths everyday when I'm back from training center. God!!!!Please help me turn the time past faster....I want back to Kulim....I can't stand the stress in training center!!! I don't like lonely life!!!! I also can't afford the foods and transports expenses in KL!!!All of the things can killed me within two months time...God!!!Please let the time past as fast as possible....

We are one

Source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sYNsRdPditE

I Know The Reason

I know why I suffered so much. Since I born, my mum first job salary just only RM280 and my father is RM500. I know that time money is big. But if RM280 deduct RM150 for parent then the balance is RM130. RM130 + RM500 = RM630 how to feed a baby?? Is it enough?? When I was 4 years old, my dad already resign. Already 17 years my dad are not working. Who can earn money for my studies fees?? All is my mum... I know the reason is she borrow a lots of money from relatives to pay my studies fees. My mum know what are the minimum qualification for looking a job. That's why she let me study Diploma. During my studies my mum don't have money to pay my studies. Do you know how she collect money?? Everyday she take bread or fried rice for her lunch. She told me that her lunch everyday is RM2 not more than that. Each day of our living we hope that we can win a big pot money from some 4D number. That is what we hope. However we need to work hard to earn more money. I know how suffered my mum have. That's why I go down to KL for training. After training session I need to find a job that have high salary. I need that to pay my mum back. Because she pay a lots to me for my studies from kindergarden until College times. Now I know why my relatives are look down on me. Because my mum lend a lots of money from them. Now, they treat me like useless people. Whatever I'm doing right also, they think I'm wasting time. Do you know how pity of my mum??? Whatever I do they think I do what I like. I give an example: Changing my image. Do you all know the reason I'm changing my image from lady to man?? Because I help my mum to budget. Think about it. If a shirt(for man) cost you RM34.90 rather than RM89.90 (for lady), which one you choose?? RM34.90 and RM89.90 are very big different. You need to pay RM55.00 for ladies shirt... Do you all think that I like to change to man images??? Actually I don't like. Because of budget then only I changed. Many of my relatives feel very shy to bring me out because they think about their friend may ask why your niece want to changed into man style. Because of that they look down on me. Example 2: Come down to KL for training. My relatives thinks that my training cost is my mum pay for me. They didn't ask me then direct scold my mum that what course she taking?? How much you need to pay?? Worth it or not?? Is it necessary?? How long the duration of training?? They also tell my mum that I can earning money with Diploma Certificate. But do you think that with Diploma certificate easily to get job? I don't think so. I work before I know. Do you all know what are my position for my first job?? Inventory Control Clerk only. How much experience you can learn from that?? Between that my relatives also say that I have high qualification but work as Inventory Clerk. So stupid!!! This is the answer that I get from them. Do you all know how I feel from small until now??? All is full of sadness... I'm not happy to live in this world. If I'm not born in this world may be my mum not that suffered... I really pity of my mum.... She is the best mum in my heart.... FOREVER!!!!!!

Il Divo and Celine Dion - I Believe in You

Source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zt_7s-Nv2W4

Il Divo and Celine Dion - I Believe in You

Lonely the path you have chosen
A restless road, no turning back
One day you will find your light again
Don't you know
Don't let go the chance
Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe I believe I believe in you
Follow your dreams
Be yourself an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do
I believe I believe I believe in you

Tous sais tu t'en iras tous sais
Coeur ouvert à l'univère
Ou suis ta quête
Sans regarder derrière
N'attends pas
Que le jour se lève
Suis ton étoile
Va jusqu'où ton rêve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
Si tu crois
Si tu crois
Si tu crois en toi
Suis ta lumière
N'étint pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fond de toi souviens toi
Que je crois
Que je crois
Que je crois en toi

Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me too
And when I hold you close
I know that it's true
Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe I believe I believe in you
Follow your dreams
Be yourself an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do
I believe I believe I believe in you
I believe I believe I believe in you
I believe I believe I believe in you...

Celine Dion - I Surrender

Source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cl9axmrFnEc

Oh yeah... It's a nice song...

Anti-Smoking Campaign

Source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0V2zn_ArlVs

Don't smoke if you want to smoke,
Think of your health,
And also think of your family,
Once you leave,
How does your family feel??
Is it happy or sad??
So your health is the most important,
Don't let your family to suffer,
When you sick...